Random Log
Whoa! been logging a lot of random stuff lately hahaha
let get started....here another random log hahaha...
sometimes u think u are indestructible no matter what life throws at u,
u think that
"I have seen so much and walk so far, I will BE FINE" hahaha.
Sure it u wont feel anything when it hit u, but as it stacking up and each time it hit the same spot over and over, surely that protection that covering u will gone.
Sure u will said,
"what the heck is just a crack, I will recover in no time and everything will be fine as usual."
but that single crack will be that vulnerable spot and with each crack is on that protection of your, the more vulnerable u are.....and when it reach to a certain point u will think that....
why in the past I used to laugh at those wound and scars, but why now when that same was being ripped open again I cant bare that little pain which is causes by it.....
It is because the protection which is protecting u was being attacked in the same spots so many times and at last it have reach the heart....
sometimes hiding or acting u are fine and all doesn't mean u are strong,
It somehow an act of coward which is u are trying to avoid reality,
showing the pain and confronting the problem even tough it hurt,
It better then hiding or avoiding from it......because...in the end
is those scar and wound which will make us grow and prepare our self
in the future....
hahaha....it seems like i have learned something hahaha...the hard way
Random Log End
Tuesday 10 December 2013
Friday 22 November 2013
random...?
Memory log start....
i never thought i did get this feeling....i never thought i did get angry at him..at my 兄弟...this is really the 1st time...i duno they notice anot...i was trying hold it back....i try to talk lesser and control my hand gesture because i can feel it shaking.....but the anger didnt last long....suppose i should not get angry right? Since兄弟 not suppose to get angry about small things like this but, why did i get angry.....this is really the 1st time...issit my jealousy? or issit i take everything to dam serious...
random log end....
i never thought i did get this feeling....i never thought i did get angry at him..at my 兄弟...this is really the 1st time...i duno they notice anot...i was trying hold it back....i try to talk lesser and control my hand gesture because i can feel it shaking.....but the anger didnt last long....suppose i should not get angry right? Since兄弟 not suppose to get angry about small things like this but, why did i get angry.....this is really the 1st time...issit my jealousy? or issit i take everything to dam serious...
random log end....
Friday 8 November 2013
Random Log
Memory Log Start
each person see things differently...
sometime that things seems like nothing to a person...
might be something to another person...
this is what make people unique...
in a way we precept other differently...
which generate different perspective of things...
and generate different idea for things...
which make the world much more different...
and interesting and it is also...
because of this it make people sometimes...
walk down the same path, or separate ways...
when a person meet someone think alike...
they will walk down the same path...
when they started to think differently...
or find other which have a more similar thought...
it will make them a much more colorful group...
can start to have more interesting things happens...
or that less similar one will be left out...
or become the minority one...
and then it will slowly come to a conjunction...
where is either stay...
or continue to walk down the other path...
some take the walk...
some choose to stay...
this is because everyone see things differently...
each will find different answer...
in a very different point of view...
~is just one of the many fragment of challenges which life tossed at us~
Memory Log End
each person see things differently...
sometime that things seems like nothing to a person...
might be something to another person...
this is what make people unique...
in a way we precept other differently...
which generate different perspective of things...
and generate different idea for things...
which make the world much more different...
and interesting and it is also...
because of this it make people sometimes...
walk down the same path, or separate ways...
when a person meet someone think alike...
they will walk down the same path...
when they started to think differently...
or find other which have a more similar thought...
it will make them a much more colorful group...
can start to have more interesting things happens...
or that less similar one will be left out...
or become the minority one...
and then it will slowly come to a conjunction...
where is either stay...
or continue to walk down the other path...
some take the walk...
some choose to stay...
this is because everyone see things differently...
each will find different answer...
in a very different point of view...
~is just one of the many fragment of challenges which life tossed at us~
Memory Log End
Sunday 3 November 2013
feeling stupid
Random Log Start
This few days nothing special happen can said is quite peaceful everything went quite smooth.
Dunno why having this peaceful feeling just make me feel there is something wrong with it haha..
I think i felt like that is because Im missing something...ya...I m missing something, problem is if u knw u are missing something u can go find it but now i duno what am i missing....
I m surely feeling stupid right now....
Random Log End
This few days nothing special happen can said is quite peaceful everything went quite smooth.
Dunno why having this peaceful feeling just make me feel there is something wrong with it haha..
I think i felt like that is because Im missing something...ya...I m missing something, problem is if u knw u are missing something u can go find it but now i duno what am i missing....
I m surely feeling stupid right now....
Random Log End
Sunday 22 September 2013
random log
Memory Log start
Have been looking at some of the past while chatting with Mr. Insomnia
It's really weird, i have no more assignment that mean i should be very relax now...not saying that im not relax....is just that....mayb i have mixed up my time...but during the night while facing with insomnia is very very boring and sure it will feel abit lonely in the midnight
I have a funny habit...which look back some of the old picture and scroll back up what i have said before in my chatbox or sms...
I like to do this is because, I was able to recall back those memory..hahaha....
while scrolling back up....i saw something, something i try to pretend that it didnt meant anything....
A week and a few days have passed.....after that happened....
wonder is that suppose be the right choice hahaha....
i cant said it have changes nothing...surely it will effect more or less....
Random Log End....
Have been looking at some of the past while chatting with Mr. Insomnia
It's really weird, i have no more assignment that mean i should be very relax now...not saying that im not relax....is just that....mayb i have mixed up my time...but during the night while facing with insomnia is very very boring and sure it will feel abit lonely in the midnight
I have a funny habit...which look back some of the old picture and scroll back up what i have said before in my chatbox or sms...
I like to do this is because, I was able to recall back those memory..hahaha....
while scrolling back up....i saw something, something i try to pretend that it didnt meant anything....
A week and a few days have passed.....after that happened....
wonder is that suppose be the right choice hahaha....
i cant said it have changes nothing...surely it will effect more or less....
Random Log End....
Wednesday 11 September 2013
i did it...
Memory Log start
ok...i if did it...
i have do what i have to do...i have no regret to it..
i dont care what the result i dont mind because i can said this "I HAVE TRIED"
now i really feel relief haha...
Memory Log END
ok...i if did it...
i have do what i have to do...i have no regret to it..
i dont care what the result i dont mind because i can said this "I HAVE TRIED"
now i really feel relief haha...
Memory Log END
Friday 6 September 2013
this is not good...
Memory Log start...
i m going back to the old me.....the one tat scare of sleeping....
every time when i switch of the light and closed my eyes...
i think of many things....too many where my head become a noisy and crowded place....
i knw i have better things to do and think about...
i duno why i just cant control it...is like a herd of wild horse stampede through my head everytime i shut my eye....
Memory Log End....
i m going back to the old me.....the one tat scare of sleeping....
every time when i switch of the light and closed my eyes...
i think of many things....too many where my head become a noisy and crowded place....
i knw i have better things to do and think about...
i duno why i just cant control it...is like a herd of wild horse stampede through my head everytime i shut my eye....
Memory Log End....
Wednesday 21 August 2013
dream flying around..
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this few night, i very late only sleep..and the feeling i buried and hidden away is slowly coming back...
for the past few night i have almost the same dream...will the dream really come through ?
this few night, i very late only sleep..and the feeling i buried and hidden away is slowly coming back...
for the past few night i have almost the same dream...will the dream really come through ?
hahahaha
(people said when u fight for the things u believe so hard, in the end it will came through one day)
(people said when u fight for the things u believe so hard, in the end it will came through one day)
Tuesday 20 August 2013
.....
Random Log
Let said I knw i will mess things up....but i really didnt knw i will mess it up in such a big scale.....
Im sorry....
Log End
Let said I knw i will mess things up....but i really didnt knw i will mess it up in such a big scale.....
Im sorry....
Log End
Tuesday 13 August 2013
testing my limits?
Random Log
My Limits is being tested again, again and again....
when or will i breakdown?
End Log
My Limits is being tested again, again and again....
when or will i breakdown?
End Log
Wednesday 7 August 2013
not tat good...
Random Log Start
I should have not take tat post when I know my strength is limited....
I knw im not good at negotiating..
I knw i sometimes i do things according my emotion....
I should have nominate my fren instead....
is my own fault though...my ego, my prejudice, myself get the best of me....
Now I knw....
Im still not mature, dont have the strength and the ability..
Im still not worthy to take tat post....
hope i can pull this through.....
Log End
I should have not take tat post when I know my strength is limited....
I knw im not good at negotiating..
I knw i sometimes i do things according my emotion....
I should have nominate my fren instead....
is my own fault though...my ego, my prejudice, myself get the best of me....
Now I knw....
Im still not mature, dont have the strength and the ability..
Im still not worthy to take tat post....
hope i can pull this through.....
Log End
Tuesday 30 July 2013
Friday 26 July 2013
Good night~
Memory Log Start~~~
(few night ago)
Today is sure very fun for me, why? I did stuff that I didnt usually do hahahaha
today a friend of my asked me to act in their assignment video, is actually a 30sec video. Is short but very fun. The character I play is a very cool guy doing his sets in a gym, this is really an opposite side of myself, I seldom act cool, even though if i did I cant stay long in that character hahaha.
They accepted the act I provide them but in every take I try to improve and ask them is the expression I did is correct anot hahahaha. Saw the footage of myself acting cool and all make me laugh real hard hahahaha. Whole progress went smooth nothing big happen is really fun~~~but if there any chances that I can act again I wish I can act character that have a funny personality cause holding back my laughter is very hard ><
After the act we go to have our dinner which is at Desa park. It been a very long time since i went back to that place, the last time i tried to go there with my friend it rain = =!!
But this time it didnt rain YEA~! after dinner we went to have a walk in desa park, it bring up alot of my memory. Besides that, I felt back tat inner peace while i was walking at the park...is just felt so relax hahaha
Ohya the reason we go there to have dinner is because they want to thx me and my other fren to act in their video, hahaha actually im the one who said thx for them to let me act cause im not tat good at act but it was fun hahahahaha
Log end~
(few night ago)
Today is sure very fun for me, why? I did stuff that I didnt usually do hahahaha
today a friend of my asked me to act in their assignment video, is actually a 30sec video. Is short but very fun. The character I play is a very cool guy doing his sets in a gym, this is really an opposite side of myself, I seldom act cool, even though if i did I cant stay long in that character hahaha.
They accepted the act I provide them but in every take I try to improve and ask them is the expression I did is correct anot hahahaha. Saw the footage of myself acting cool and all make me laugh real hard hahahaha. Whole progress went smooth nothing big happen is really fun~~~but if there any chances that I can act again I wish I can act character that have a funny personality cause holding back my laughter is very hard ><
After the act we go to have our dinner which is at Desa park. It been a very long time since i went back to that place, the last time i tried to go there with my friend it rain = =!!
But this time it didnt rain YEA~! after dinner we went to have a walk in desa park, it bring up alot of my memory. Besides that, I felt back tat inner peace while i was walking at the park...is just felt so relax hahaha
Ohya the reason we go there to have dinner is because they want to thx me and my other fren to act in their video, hahaha actually im the one who said thx for them to let me act cause im not tat good at act but it was fun hahahahaha
Log end~
Tuesday 9 July 2013
sometimes....
Random Log
started....
Try to put up a happy face....but sorry today is just too tired for me....booklet got mess up in the last minute...lost my mood....feeling of tired kick in......frustration also come by to said hi......happy is busy....smile walked away....tiredness decide to stay....
Log end....
started....
Try to put up a happy face....but sorry today is just too tired for me....booklet got mess up in the last minute...lost my mood....feeling of tired kick in......frustration also come by to said hi......happy is busy....smile walked away....tiredness decide to stay....
Log end....
Monday 29 April 2013
A simple day....
Memory Log start
This actually happened on Sunday but was too lazy to write or type, well let get started.
Today, i was awaken by my parent real early in the morning...well is actually 11am already is just that I was very lazy to get up from bed because Saturday night i spend most of the time play games...well that how an Otaku live right? hahahaha
So let continue, today they woke me up because they said it been sometime since i have breakfast with them, well it true due to my assignment in the previous semester i spend most of my time at my friend hostel. Even if came back home it will be very late by the time i reach home, even the earliest will be 12am...
Sure I got a bit mad due to insufficient sleep but after i calm down myself with a nice cold bath everything is fine(never wake a bear during it's slumber hahaha XD). As usual dad will bring us to have "Dim Sum" which i like it alot for some reason...really duno how to put it in words.
After breakfast we went to a supermarket nothing much happen there, just normal grocery shopping.
Before we went back (this is where something special happen), my baby sis said she want to go to the arcade haha, it been some time since i go there with them. Was not in the mood to play, so I was walking around in the toy department (Gundam hunting actually XD). After doing that little walk I when back to the arcade to meet up with my parents...there I saw them playing with my sis...They are smiling and laughing very happy...at the same time i really felt that i have been absent in this family for a very long...is like an ages since i see their happy face especially my mom and dad.
So I think "i should do something that i have been havent do for a long time..."
After we went back, i took out some meat and vegetables and i start to prepare...
(it been a very long time since i have cooked, so the dishes i made are not that prefect XD)
made some simple dishes for my parent, they said it been sometime since i have cooked at home, although dad have some complaint about the meat...well who ask me to overcook it hahaha but it still can be eaten no harm done haha.
That day was a simple and yet it a good one to look back at in the future....^^
(To those who come by, When was the last time U spend your precious time with your family.
As U are getting older, your Parent are ageing too. Spend some time with them that is what they really want. not Ur money, the cloth or food U gave.... what they really want is U spending time together with them ^^ )
Memory Log End
This actually happened on Sunday but was too lazy to write or type, well let get started.
Today, i was awaken by my parent real early in the morning...well is actually 11am already is just that I was very lazy to get up from bed because Saturday night i spend most of the time play games...well that how an Otaku live right? hahahaha
So let continue, today they woke me up because they said it been sometime since i have breakfast with them, well it true due to my assignment in the previous semester i spend most of my time at my friend hostel. Even if came back home it will be very late by the time i reach home, even the earliest will be 12am...
Sure I got a bit mad due to insufficient sleep but after i calm down myself with a nice cold bath everything is fine(never wake a bear during it's slumber hahaha XD). As usual dad will bring us to have "Dim Sum" which i like it alot for some reason...really duno how to put it in words.
After breakfast we went to a supermarket nothing much happen there, just normal grocery shopping.
Before we went back (this is where something special happen), my baby sis said she want to go to the arcade haha, it been some time since i go there with them. Was not in the mood to play, so I was walking around in the toy department (Gundam hunting actually XD). After doing that little walk I when back to the arcade to meet up with my parents...there I saw them playing with my sis...They are smiling and laughing very happy...at the same time i really felt that i have been absent in this family for a very long...is like an ages since i see their happy face especially my mom and dad.
So I think "i should do something that i have been havent do for a long time..."
After we went back, i took out some meat and vegetables and i start to prepare...
(it been a very long time since i have cooked, so the dishes i made are not that prefect XD)
made some simple dishes for my parent, they said it been sometime since i have cooked at home, although dad have some complaint about the meat...well who ask me to overcook it hahaha but it still can be eaten no harm done haha.
That day was a simple and yet it a good one to look back at in the future....^^
(To those who come by, When was the last time U spend your precious time with your family.
As U are getting older, your Parent are ageing too. Spend some time with them that is what they really want. not Ur money, the cloth or food U gave.... what they really want is U spending time together with them ^^ )
Memory Log End
Wednesday 20 March 2013
feelings going haywire
Memory Log start....
Tonight the sky is clear, Moon is bright and star and blinking brightly in the sky is a good night indeed...
but today somehow i feel very very tired......maybe this few days i very late only go to bed....maybe.....
Memory Log End.....
Tonight the sky is clear, Moon is bright and star and blinking brightly in the sky is a good night indeed...
but today somehow i feel very very tired......maybe this few days i very late only go to bed....maybe.....
Memory Log End.....
Friday 15 March 2013
Random memory fragment
Memory Log Start
today is really a good day hahaha,
After finish class me and my friends when to sing-k is really fun since we have rush for our assignment for few days is time to distress, relax and prepare our self mentally and physically for our next assignment war.
After, we done singing we go to have our dinner but before dinner we found a very very very beautiful hostel we really like it, really hope that all of us can move in to it hahaha it sure be fun XD. After dinner, we played basketball for awhile...after that each of us went home...
Weird things happen while i was playing basketball i spaced out for sometime few sec maybe...reason? something came to my mind while i was looking up at the sky...saw a star blinking...do bring back some memory haha. It been sometime since i have that sensation...why it came not sure...why in such a sudden not sure also....
Is just very funny but since is jus a "random fragment" why not keep it just as random as possible hahahaha....
Memory Log End
today is really a good day hahaha,
After finish class me and my friends when to sing-k is really fun since we have rush for our assignment for few days is time to distress, relax and prepare our self mentally and physically for our next assignment war.
After, we done singing we go to have our dinner but before dinner we found a very very very beautiful hostel we really like it, really hope that all of us can move in to it hahaha it sure be fun XD. After dinner, we played basketball for awhile...after that each of us went home...
Weird things happen while i was playing basketball i spaced out for sometime few sec maybe...reason? something came to my mind while i was looking up at the sky...saw a star blinking...do bring back some memory haha. It been sometime since i have that sensation...why it came not sure...why in such a sudden not sure also....
Is just very funny but since is jus a "random fragment" why not keep it just as random as possible hahahaha....
Memory Log End
Sunday 27 January 2013
smiling at a Fragment of a pass : )
Memory Log Start....
Actually I should be sleeping by now, there is nothing special for today.....until just now.....
Just like always when i do my things during this time around I will plug in my ear phone and start to listen to music while doing my work there is nothing special here, just one of my random habits....what make me drop by here is while listen to my music player...it reached The song...this song hold some of my pass. A pass which i buried deep down me...reader or surfer who saw this might found it weird...why a pass that I'm trying to hide away was written on a blog...is just me trying finding a place to express.
(sound emo uh? hahaha)
A pass is a pass just smile or laugh at it when u bump into it and continue to walk forward.
LIFE STILL GO ON~^^
Memory Log End.
Actually I should be sleeping by now, there is nothing special for today.....until just now.....
Just like always when i do my things during this time around I will plug in my ear phone and start to listen to music while doing my work there is nothing special here, just one of my random habits....what make me drop by here is while listen to my music player...it reached The song...this song hold some of my pass. A pass which i buried deep down me...reader or surfer who saw this might found it weird...why a pass that I'm trying to hide away was written on a blog...is just me trying finding a place to express.
(sound emo uh? hahaha)
A pass is a pass just smile or laugh at it when u bump into it and continue to walk forward.
LIFE STILL GO ON~^^
Memory Log End.
Thursday 10 January 2013
2013 1st Blog~
Memory Log Start...
well in December....is my semester break..i have no income or allowance since i no need to go to my university haha mean no shopping T.T, usually i dont feel like shopping but since...
i said this to myself "if the world didnt end in 2012 i will change my out fit style" of course i know the wont end hahaha
It been a long time since i come back here to so call write down some of my memory hahaha
hmm...let try summarize what fun thing happen in December until now hahaha
well in December....is my semester break..i have no income or allowance since i no need to go to my university haha mean no shopping T.T, usually i dont feel like shopping but since...
i said this to myself "if the world didnt end in 2012 i will change my out fit style" of course i know the wont end hahaha
Next thing happen in December is....MY B-Day hahaha
I really need to thx my friend to actually spend the time to plan a birthday surprise for me because at that time we are actually having our Final exam hahaha
i duno when they actually prepare my present but the way they try to distract me while they plan is somehow abit funny... They split in two to group...1 will distract me another is prepare the things...
funny things is the girl is the group is the one who distract and what make it so funny is i actually was pulled to go shopping with them in an outlet call FOREVER 21which most of the thing in it are for girl hahaha
In there i notice a guy (a promoter) actually looked at me because i was shopping with them and some of them actually pick cloth for me to wear....funny is i actually can fit in jus by measuring it hahaha it was fun all the way..getting to wear girl accessories (bracelet, necklace) and jus showing them and joking around hahaha. They are still fair because later they also follow me to an outlet which actually sell boy/man attire hahaha found some nice cloth but didnt buy cause no $$ XD
After that we regroup...no the surprise havent come yet hahaha
we go to have our dinner then we go to a friend house i..no is we also stay over-night at his house
The surprise come at the second day after breakfast, i was in my friend room wit other friend chatting..
some of them were not here because they said they need to go buy some stuff
(i notice something is going on because someone accidentally slip some clue out lolx)
They actually get me Gundam MG 1/100 Freedom hahaha
and i was shocked because i know the price is quite high i was so moved until tear almost came out
Luckily one of the girl said...Foong are u going to cry!?...than i only notice and i try to hold back the tear in my eye XD
My parent also gived me a surprise which they bring me to a restaurant to have a dinner there i order something i never try before...escargot~ hahaha quite tasty~XD
i also ordered some of my fav of course XD
In this December i also make my 1st stop motion video...i make it just to show how appreciate and happy that my friends actually plan a birthday surprise for me XD
(is my first stop motion sure is not that good but im happy that they liked it)
For me countdown nothing special actually happen hahaha~
so i can said this is much of the little special things that actually happen in 2012 December~
all i can said is i have enjoy that year alot~
Thanks for my friends to be there when i needed them through the whole year~
Thanks for my parent that supported me~ XD
Before this log end...i want to said...OMG!!! 3more days and my semester break is over!!!
Hahahaha a new semester a new life~XD
Memory Log End...
I really need to thx my friend to actually spend the time to plan a birthday surprise for me because at that time we are actually having our Final exam hahaha
i duno when they actually prepare my present but the way they try to distract me while they plan is somehow abit funny... They split in two to group...1 will distract me another is prepare the things...
funny things is the girl is the group is the one who distract and what make it so funny is i actually was pulled to go shopping with them in an outlet call FOREVER 21which most of the thing in it are for girl hahaha
In there i notice a guy (a promoter) actually looked at me because i was shopping with them and some of them actually pick cloth for me to wear....funny is i actually can fit in jus by measuring it hahaha it was fun all the way..getting to wear girl accessories (bracelet, necklace) and jus showing them and joking around hahaha. They are still fair because later they also follow me to an outlet which actually sell boy/man attire hahaha found some nice cloth but didnt buy cause no $$ XD
After that we regroup...no the surprise havent come yet hahaha
we go to have our dinner then we go to a friend house i..no is we also stay over-night at his house
The surprise come at the second day after breakfast, i was in my friend room wit other friend chatting..
some of them were not here because they said they need to go buy some stuff
(i notice something is going on because someone accidentally slip some clue out lolx)
They actually get me Gundam MG 1/100 Freedom hahaha
and i was shocked because i know the price is quite high i was so moved until tear almost came out
Luckily one of the girl said...Foong are u going to cry!?...than i only notice and i try to hold back the tear in my eye XD
My parent also gived me a surprise which they bring me to a restaurant to have a dinner there i order something i never try before...escargot~ hahaha quite tasty~XD
i also ordered some of my fav of course XD
In this December i also make my 1st stop motion video...i make it just to show how appreciate and happy that my friends actually plan a birthday surprise for me XD
(is my first stop motion sure is not that good but im happy that they liked it)
For me countdown nothing special actually happen hahaha~
so i can said this is much of the little special things that actually happen in 2012 December~
all i can said is i have enjoy that year alot~
Thanks for my friends to be there when i needed them through the whole year~
Thanks for my parent that supported me~ XD
Before this log end...i want to said...OMG!!! 3more days and my semester break is over!!!
Hahahaha a new semester a new life~XD
Memory Log End...
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